Movies

Well again it's been a while since I have posted. But I really do totally forget that I have this thing. So I am just going to try to play around with this for a while and see if I can get in the habit of posting every so often.
So movies...I am a lover of watching movies. Love to go to the theater and watch them. So last week I went to the theater alone and watched the new 50 Shades Darker movie. I absolutely loved it. More than the first one. The actors seemed to be more comfortable with each other this time around. They did a wonderful job with the movie. I can not wait till it comes out on video so I can buy it.

My kids want to watch a movie just about every night. We have so many movies and we will sit some nights and watch nothing but movies all night long. The boys love just about anything with Adam Sandler. Heck the whole family loves him.

Been a very long time.

Well dang I totally forgot that I started this blog thing forever ago. So now I will add a new post...SO HERE GOES!!!

What all has happened...Well lets start off by saying this past year has been a little bit of HELL on wheels! My life kinda got turned upside down. In May, my mom passed away very suddenly. They suspect she had a heart attack. I didn't talk to my mom often, but she was always there if I needed to talk to her. We may not have always seen eye to eye but when we talked, we talked! Just 3 days before she passed I was suppose to see her. My oldest daughter graduated from high school and she was suppose to come. However she didn't make it, for several reasons. I was so upset and angry when she told me she wasn't coming! And now I am living with total regret! I hate the way I felt, the things I said, and the things I thought. But now that she isn't here there is nothing I can do! I keep saying I am sorry to her, and I pray she hears me. We may have went weeks, or months without talking and I hate myself for that, but I keep being told that the phone works both ways. And yes it does. But here I sit, completely parent less. My dad passed when I was 14 and now at 37 I have lost my mother. I know as children, we are suppose to bury our parents, but I also know we are not suppose to bury them too soon. And I feel like I buried her too soon! So as I have tried to learn how to live knowing I cant just text her or call her at the drop of a hat, I am honestly a broken woman. This is one of the hardest things I have ever done. Losing my Daddy was very hard, and I had only known him a small length of time. My mother on the other hand....well lets just say this is not something I would wish on anyone! I have got all her stuff out of her house. And it is stored....I am so not ready to go through it yet. I have started going through her pictures and scanning them into her computer. To put them on disks so that I can let my brother have a copy.

So the next thing that happened was, (actually this was before Mom passed away) My oldest daughter graduated High School. I can not believe that I have a kid that old. It breaks my heart.

My husband and I like going to tractor pulls...the day that we were suppose to go to our favorite one, my oldest son had a seizure. It was the first one he had in several years. Like 10 to be close. And this was actually the worst one. He actually shook during this one, he bit his cheek, and his tongue. My hubby is the one who seen him have this one. Its the first one hes ever seen him have. And it terrified him!!! (Needless to say, we didnt make it to the tractor pull, which is fine.)

Well when my oldest turned 18 she moved out that day. And moved in with her boyfriend. In July she got married. I am proud of her, but worry that she just did this to move out of my house. And I guess thats fine. If thats what she wanted to do. She is the one who has to live her life. Not me.

Then just 5 days after she moved out, she wrecked the car that belonged to my mother. It started out as my Nanny's car. She bought it brand new. It only had 64 miles on it. Then my 18 year old pulls out in front of someone and they hit her. She was told not to drive it because she didnt have insurance on it. And as a result, she lost her licences and has a massive fine. So what am I suppose to do???

Well now here we are several months later, and she wants to "scrap" the car because she needs money. Well I am not too happy with that idea. I want the car back. I would rather have the car in my yard collecting dirt, rather than them destroying it! And I know she needs money, but I do not feel as if I should pay her for it, then turn around and have to pay to fix it! She didnt pay a single penny for it!!!

Anyway....this is my crazy life!!!

Just some thoughts

Ok, I was talking to one of my friends about this time last year, and she says that she needs to go so she can get her house finished so that the teacher can come over. I was not sure what she was talking about so I asked her. She said that in her county the teacher your child has, will come visit your house. I preceded to ask her what that meant. She said that it is something that county does. They do it every year. So my question is this, am I the new person to the childs life or are they? I have been with my child since the time of conception. I really dont feel as if they should come check out my house or family. Now there is a reason I feel that they could, and that is if I am abusing my child.
I feel that if the teachers are the ones that are new to our childs life. They dont need to be coming to my house. We have been there the kids whole life and you will only have my child for 9 months.
I almost understand it as far as my child will be able to meet the teacher and get to know him/her on a little more of an personal level, but come on like the teachers all have enough time to drive all over the place to see each childs house. I dont think so!!!

New Blog Site

I am a big Nook lover. There is a new site for getting free or reduced books. Check it out. http://the-cheap.net/2011/07/22/welcome-to-the-cheap/
I have about 220 books on my Nook now and LOVE LOVE LOVE it.

Headaches

So for the last few weeks, I have been getting headaches every day. Most mornings, I wake up with it thumping in my right eye. I am about to give up and go to the dr, but I really hate to because I have not been to the dr for my anual in like 3 years. I dont want to spend that money on myself. I know before you say it, if I dont take care of myself, who is going to take care of my kids...but I just want to use that money on the kids. ARGH I am so sick of the pain. I had hoped that it was only because of my monthly, but here it is a week and a half later and I am still hurting EVERYDAY!!!
ANYWAYS....

HOPE YOU HAVE A WONDERFUL 4TH OF JULY!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMERICA!!!


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VERY FRUSTRAITED!!!

So this morning on GMA there was a segment about parents allowing their teenage childern having sex in their homes. One parent said that she feels like her child will be safe at home. Most of the time the condoms are in the night stand drawer (her words not mine). COME ON!!!! Do most parents think that just because there are condoms being used that their child will not get pregnant/get girl pregnant??? COME ON FOLKS!!!!!!! Condoms break ALL THE TIME!!! I know that most use just for the "SAFE SEX" (not getting AIDS) and what not, but seriously, some girls dont like the way it feels, so then no condom is used. And in the same time, some boys dont like to use them because they dont like the way it feels, so then again NO CONDOMS USED!!!  So then what good is that drawer full of condoms?? The lady said something about from ages 15-18. Well let me tell you something 18 is an adult. No I would not be happy with the idea of my 18 year old child having sex in my house, but THAT IS AN ADULT!!! Now on the flip side....15 WHATS IS WRONG WITH THESE PARENTS SAYING ITS OK AT 15???? FIFTEEN!!!! At 15 the kids need to be thinking about other things like getting an education not having SEX.

Having a baby at the age of 18 was hard for me, I cant image what having one at 15, 16, 17 would be like. I am in no way downing anyone who has had one earlier than 18, but I am saying I wish I knew then what I know now. I love my children (all 4 of them) with ALL my heart, and would not take anything in this world for ANY of them. Having a child when you are still a KID yourself is not easy. It CANT be!!!

Please understand that I am not downing you if YOU are ok with YOUR child having sex before they are GROWN, but this is MY blog, and I am NOT ok with MY child having sex before they are grown.  I am TRYING to raise my kids in a Christian home, with Christian values. I dont want my kids to even think about that stuff!!!

End of school

Well here we are. Today was the last FULL day of school for my kids. They have to go Saturday to get their report cards. I know that sounds crazy, but we had several snow days then had several flooding days that the kids missed. So we had to add 2 days to our normal school year. I was planning on giving them a special treat. So tonight I am making one of their favorite dinners. My oldest asks me just about every night if I can make Lasagna and usually I wont, because I dont have all the stuff. But tonight she has no clue that I am surprising her with her favorite dinner. I have thought about doing different things to make the start to summer a great one. I have though about putting streamers in the door way so that when my kids walk into the house they are brought into a fun zone, but I still have not made it to do that. One day I will!!!! Got to love ideas that never seem to get put into action. I feel so bad about not doing it, but the kids know nothing about it, so that kinda lightnes the feeling.